it's alright, it's ok.

im stoning right now.
im supposed to be planning for a lesson
on leadership, as tasked.
but then i just cant help to drift away.


leaving the school and heading straight home
feels like some random saturdays.
i took the trains of 3 different lines alone,
together with the music in my phone.
i was feeling moodless.
i guess i had no one to talk to bah..
and everyone else are busy with their own stuffs in school.
oh well, i managed to make my own way to my tutor's house.
during tuition, maths never felt so monsterous.
but then in school, seems like maths is eating me up,
like how i chewed gummy bears.
hoho.


there's maths test tomorrow.
im sick of the "everyday got test life"
give me a break manzx.
it's like everyday, every morning.
there will be a book or notes on my hands.
trying to memorise all the contents
to sit for the test,
in some random period of the day.
and im sick of myself falling asleep these few days
while i do my homework.
i think i felt so reluctant and sick that,
i my as well slept. and chiong all of it in class.
it's like super busy la.
one moment you have to focus on the subject you are in,
another moment you need to continue writing and doing your homework.
haha. don't make it a habit yeah people!


i will try to start sleeping early,
because according to the radio that my dad listens to.
having not enough sleep will make a person
unhealthy and easily fat.
so yeah, why put your body at risk?
oh well, it's already 10.10pm
after i finish doing my powerpoint slides and stuffs.
it will 12am i guess?
im so duper happy that tomorrow is gona be a short day.


im having this feeling of
"low sugar level" nowadays.
it's like you feel like drinking something that is sweet.
to perk you up. haha :D


anyway, i went to have ichiban sushi for dinner just now.
ate my favourite beancurd udon.
was so damn shiok.
i ate mac's ice cream + waffle cone after that.
once again, super shiok! ^^


my dad just tempt me that bangbangtang is featured at
some showbiz.
i wana catch it!
but then i got a lesson waiting for me to plan..
hoho. burn midnight oil i guess.
bye peeps! :)


music: hush hush (remix) - pussycat dolls


there is no other way.

toyed.

can somebody tell me
when will blogger be back like one piece again?
it's sorta discouraging me to blog.
wahahaha :D
im sorry people.
i found out that AOU's outing to SKCC
has 300+ photos leh.
amazing or what?
it's packed with lesbo photos,
which i find a little eeeeeeeee...
and lotsa 1 second shots.
i think it's by lisa or perhaps karen.
it's like every movement one pic.
how am i suppose to upload sia.
if im lazy, perhaps i will delete it all away.
too bad you see.. haha :D
{like very bad like that}


oh well these few days
i have been staying back in school,
waitings for my darlings.
and watching the gays have their NDP Rehearsals.
haha :D
just by watching them do stuffs and get serious alone,
can make me laugh already.


i just wana say im so glad that
my girlfriends enjoys the gay's companies.
well, i hope they feel the happiness when
im with them. it's like "a laugh non-stop" thing
haha, therefore, i hope those people out there
that thinks that im flirting or what can perhaps change your thinking..
because, the gays are very good friends to me,
friends i enjoy company with, friends i treasure.
so yeah... :)
oh well i have not been caring about
what other's think since i started hanging out with them.
so yeah to many of your out there.
don't worry about what others might think of you,
as long as you know what you are doing is right and
what you are doing is really what you want.
of course what you do have to be legal and appropriate la.
so, i just wana say, be yourself alright! ^^


music: love, sex and magic - justin timberlake ft ciara
thoughts: its stuck in my head right now.


oh yeah, councilors hold on + jiayou!!!!


awkward.

lost.

gosh, im sorry people i cannot upload any photos.
i think my camera is flooded la.
i shall send it to them all sth i guess.
but then you know,
my lazyness never fails to act up.


oh well daddy went to apply the V channel and all.
haha, super addicted to the shows.
i love bangbangtang! ^^


today tests that got back wasn't satisfying
boohoo.
and there are some stuffs
that happened, that is freaking me out.
hoho. i shall see how...


so yeah people,
nowadays my post will be like that,
black plus boring.


i think im gona fall sick soon...


music: turn right - jonas brothers.

i gotta go my own way...

i don't know what's wrong with blogger these days.
i duno why i cant post photos
im sorry yeah people.
but then it will be in my comp.
wait till blogger is fixed or something,
then i will upload all of them up again.


anyway let me talk about yesterday.
well stayed back after school for library duty.
and then off to teachers day audition
to give support to the gays.
haha. :D
oh well after that,
wasn't feeling that great.
my tap was on.
S.I.T with amirah. haha
don't feel "don't-know-what-to-do"
about it yeah. i will persist on wan...
thanks all for the concern.
sorry people yeah.


had dinner.
played guitar.
discussed n talked about stuffs.
sang too.
hahahaha, embarassing.
oh well, i always enjoy myself with A.O.U
haha :D


today leh
went paintball
with joshua, hongwei athena and 2 other guys.
hoho, i had fun with them
thanks joshua for the treat!
oh yeah i got a bruise at my waist.
paint de can!
it's PAINball
rather than PAINTball lor...


met karen n lisa after that
for lunch at vivo.
hoho, overall was not bad!


im tired of everything.
so much pressure.
i think im not being me.
perhaps im not suitable.
oh well, i shall persist on for the sake of it.


music: follow me into the dark - death cab for cutie
thoughts: recommended by lisa + amirah

like finally...

hoho, i can actually blog.
previously the box for typing does not pop out.
now the box is as big as the screen.
what's wrong manzx!
oh and the colour palette or whatever you call that to change the colour of words.
is as small as ants, for each colour.
i like randomly picking a colour.
and i can like only bold or italic it.


anyway, let me update what happened.
well i guess i lead a happy life since the day i last posted..
wahahaha.
i shall say the major things.


well wednesday school released us early,
therefore A.O.U decided to go for an outing.
was having dinner on tuesday night.
then we all decided to go bowl plus cycle.
haha had duper lots of fun with them luh.
photos are with lisa and angelina.
oh yeah, i got strike you know!
first time lei!
but then in the end i was last.
bleh :P
will try to upload them yeah!


anyway tuesday was racial harmony celebration.
worn the baju kurung that amirah gave,
the one that i worn for ASEP.
haha was super lime green and super striking.
wahahahaha. :D
anyway, i had fun with my gfs.


today had meeting in school
with the exchange students,
find them kinda very friendly
and well, okay la.
i wonder how's my sec 2s at other schools doing.
oh well, i received lotsa feedbacks plus comments from them.


oh yeah got back the test results
for chemistry and biology.
all super not happy.
i think missing one week of school,
really need you to be hardworking in order to catch up.
because the lazy me has not been coping well.
boohoo. i seriously hate myself.


anyway, just a "for your information" thing,
haha, very random like that.
when people give me feedbacks or comments on me,
hmm i will like talk back or something,
it's because in my opinion,
i think im doing the right thing la.
i may keep quiet after a while,
but don't worry im just thinking through stuffs.
so please don't put that to heart alright.
and im not sad or emo ya!
i always believe feedbacks and comments helps to improve people,
i think its because i don't want to face the
bad side of myself or something like that.
cheers plus smiles! :D


well, i feel that im very pressurised this week.
but then im gona hang out with my beloved gays and gfs = A.O.U
to keep my flame of my cheeks burning.
haha, still remember last year teachers' day was so stressful
that i goes to school with my face being pale daily.
and many teachers were so worried.
i love the teachers in my school.
ROCK ON!


gosh...
a leader, and an achiever.
kinda hard goal.
but im gona try.
damn, life's being stress huh...


music: your call - secondhand serenade

i duno why, the box for posting just nv pop out...

OUCH!

went lunch with boyband minus angelinda plus karen's cousin.

haha. ate ajisen, im gona go broke alright.

shall go on diet next week.

i wasn't into a very talking mood.

so yeah.

gona go for tuition and complete all my homeworks.

ciao!

music: 盧學叡 - 可不可以愛我

你可不可以爱我

可不可以看我

反正看或不看我依然失魂落魄

Appreciation.

oh yeah i said i will think of a topic to post.

so this is it.

haha. :D

hmm, many of us only knows how to appreciate and cherish

only when you lost something or someone.

hmm, there was a time

during the PSC camp in june09

i invited mr chua over to give the councilors

a training on passion.

at the last part of the training

he asked us to do up a mindmap.

one of the question was,

if you have one day left to live,

what will you do.

my answer was to spend my day with family and friends.

actually, your answer that you had,

reflects upon how your situation of daily life

that you are in right now i guess.

so yeah, i heard some of the answers.

not that they are wrong,

because different people has different perspective.

however, parents are the ones that gave birth to you,

as in bring you to this amazing world,

i think no matter what it is,

you have to be thankful for the fact.

they went through the pain and trouble,

gave in and work their best for the money

to provide you a living.

you see, diapers and milk powder nowadays ain't cheap.

feeding a child can cost a bomb i guess.

and i find it very kinda noble.

parents have to wake up every midnight to

feed the baby cause they will cry.

and it's a must, despite having to wake up early for work the next day.

i think its the sacrifires they need to make.

for the repay the kids will have to make in the future.

ok perhaps not repay, i just don't have another word.

well, im sad that some children does not appreciate their parents,

or conversely, some parents do not appreciates their children.

im glad that my family is a very peace and harmony one.

so i think children ought to earn money and dote on their parents

when they grow up. perhaps some of the parents doesn't dote on them

but then i think it is still a "ought to" thing to treat them well.

i guess this is something i have really learnt through writing my compo.

it's talks about this pampered kid,

that behaves like a king and is very rebellious,

having his mother to serve him like a maid.

one day just as the mother had an accident,

he had to do all the chores and everything by himself,

at that time, he then realise the importance of his mother beside him.

so i think all of us must learn how to appreciate others, and the people around you.

because you should be thankful for that.

when others help you or do something for you,

a "thankyou" is not very hard to say,

or even you can show your appreciation,

by making a little card or buying a gift.

i think the receiver will feel great if he/she is appreciated.

i don't know about others, but it's a definitely thing for me.

i guess i will feel very touched, or perhaps gets emotional..

so i guess, every little things matters.

i used to be a shy person i guess.

every little appreciative things, i need to do it privately.

like blog it, sms, or only when one to one i will say it.

for example the recent case:

amirah send me home, i need to blog it to thank her.

my daddy bought me a phone,

only when im with him alone in the car then i thanked him.

it's like so shy you know. hahaha :D

*blushes.

hoho, a kinda long post.

yay! im satisfied that my blog is kinda filled with photos.

i shall use this photo for my profile picture.

will go resize later.

very bright hor this photo.

like can feel the sun.

hahahaha :D

hoho, today will be a stoning day at home.

im currently entertaining shao wen.

the pathetic gong gong boy that got quarantined

and could not go for exchange prog.

and mark is that lucky guy that replaced him.

haha. it's ok shao wen, stay at home use comp oso not bad la.

oh meanwhile, im transferring my songs and photos to my phone.

i spent a long time yesterday editting my contacts.

because i copied it to my sim card then people's name will appear like;

man ting will become > man ting 1/

like got this "1/" behind.

or like belinda lee

will become lee belinda1/

then i must go edit lor.

super troublesome la.

im still trying to get use to it.

oh i tink i almost spoiled my handphone the pen

when i was trying to get it out yesterday.

super scary.

i feel so alone at home,

though my mummy is at home.

{she's having her beauty sleep/nap}

didi went out with his friends.

{like finally ok.}

daddy went to work.

let me go think of a topic to blog about.

will post again!

music: 梁静茹- 爱情之所以为爱情

YAY! DEDICATE THIS POST TO MY SEC 2s!

they are gona go for their exchange programme next week.

will miss them!

hey people, make sure your learn things there alright!

oh and remember my

A.A.A.H !! okay!

haha, see you guys when your are back!

:D

F YOUth Council

haha it's outing for that time

with F YOUth council.

hoho. was ok la.

the photos are super random plus candid.

and i look so retarded at the group photo because i did not open my eyes.

urgh.

haha, next time will be a successful one!

:D

suspicious.

hoho, random.

oh yeah, it's belinda's apple that she gave me.

as you can see, there are many more that sleeps with me at the

bottom right of the photo. hahahaha :D

me love them can! :)

anyway, let me blog about yesterday.

it was kinda great i guess.

i forgot what happened in school.

basically after school had meeting with ms lim in council room.

crapped and played with the guys till 6+

went compasspoint with boyband to have dinner

cum belated birthday celebration for angelina.

heehee. was very full. and got lotsa things to eat lor.

had fun with them. :D

oh yeah, thanks daddy for giving me more money.

hahahahaha :D

oh yeah daddy mummy bought me a new phone.

thank you yeah.

after the composition i wrote for english ST

on the importance of appreciation.

i learn to appreciate the people around me more bah i guess,

especially my family lor.

like so hahahaha :D

anyway, met up with lychee plus kazuu. plus cheeky guy.

haha, sounds funny calling them this way.

actually they wanted to dinner with me.

felt so aww...

haha, but then still managed to go and talk to them.

supposedly wanted to go home with them,

cause my parents they all went home.

in the end my daddy came to fetch me.

haha. :D

was so tired that i didn't do homework.

though i wanted to. haha.

in the end this morning then chiong in class.

oh yeah, i failed my maths test. boohoo.

i hope to at least get a moderate pass for ST luh.

im so glad that there's tuition on sunday.

finished up my compo after school.

thanks lisa and amirah for being there!

went to eat ice cream with them after that.

oh yeah, i ate the muffin that lisa baked

it was awesome! haha, lisawesome! so random.

hoho laughed with them.

bused home. oh yeah there's this guy that sits somewhere near me in the bus

he played "you and i both" and "new divide" so loudly

that i feel like singing along.

but then i won't embarass myself. haha :D

music; be with you - akon

cause you'll never know,

what it's like to walk in our shoes.

im a lamb.

hi all!
im currently blogging because,
im waiting for my dear english teacher to upload the english assignments on lead portal.
and let us do plus print.
she uploaded two files, but then both empty.
saddening for her.
oh well, i shall take this free time to update my dear blog.


haha, there are currently 75 person on msn that's online on my msn.
kinda cool in a way. :)
oh yeah, let me talk about yesterday.
basically my mood was super moody in the morning.
like, everything could not get into my head.
and i cant seem to be bothered by anything.
oh well, became better after recess i think.
got food you see. haha :D


then after school, my tap was switched on.
i hate myself, boohoo.
basically i realised that there are 2 types of people that i categorised for when i cry.
first is people that i don't want to let them see me cry.
well they are people like teachers, and parents.
perhaps is because i don't want them to see the weaker side of me bah.
shall say that i want the strong face of me remaining as the image.
next will be the people that i don't mind them seeing me cry.
haha, weird like that.
hmm, they are of course my dearest friends.
i guess it's because they are used to it?
haha, well they are the people who lends me their listening ears
and advices me bah.
not trying to say that parents and teachers don't advice me.
just that because i spend most of my time with friends,
therefore they know better of what's going on.
so i need not explain much i guess.
well, just rmb dun mention the word "cry" when im gona cry, or is crying
cause i will cry more.
it seriously do take effect.
because it's when she said
"are you going to cry?"
and, dangdang, everything poured out.

thanks amirah love for sending me to the bus-stop!

much appreciated!! :D

anyway, today was a great day.
firstly,
HAPPAYE BIRTHDAYE ANGELINA BOK!
HAHA, MY HORNEH.
did a card for her, no time for presents.
i still owe manting, karen and her a present.
oh no, august got a lot of people's birthday oso.
soon, im gona be broke! i needa save up.
shall work on a plan for this issue. haha.
anyway, surprised her with many things.
the hearts, the board and the bento.
haha inside the bento got my favourite onigiri ok!


oh yeah there was chemistry test.
hmm, kinda hard for me.
but i guess i tried.
maths was learning about the graphs.
ok la, kinda catchable.
chinese, i forgot to bring textbook,
thanks belinda for sharing! :D
SS was more lively today.
due to some comparisons mrs lee was making haha,
though i do feel a little "err..." about it.
LCE, we gave names to ourselves.
me > haha
angelina > hehe
belinda > huhu
karen > hoho
singyee > hihi
alexia > hiuhiu
hahaha :D
biology was kinda bloody plus eeeee...
mr sara cut the heart of a sheep.
then showed us the pulmonary vein and stuffs.
haha, kinda disgusting but then very interesting.
like, it's super elastic.
hoho, it's been so long since i last talked to ah peng.
lols, like usual, she always got lotsa funny stuffs to say.
rushed home, and here i am.


music: heartless - kris allen
thoughts: woohoo, so addicted.

don't let little things hold you back.

hoho, i had a moody day.

will post more when i have the

time + mood.

bye.

captures.

hoho, below are photos taken

during dinner with boyband that time.

please don't mind our crazyness. :D

take your time to browse, cause i took a long time to upload u see.

oh yeah, pls dun do anything funny to it ya.