LOVE or HATE.

hello all, the previous post is supposed to be for yesterday.

anyway, i went school today.

alright, i shall officially tell you guys

regarding the unexpected thing that im doing.

that is,

my dearest syafiq actually asked me to study with the guys in school.

like so rare la.

in the end, i went to settle some council stuffs.

and he's late for like 2hrs?

so good ah him.

copied biology notes from imran,

got azimah to teach me about the eye.

flipped through the homeworks.

really got a lot lor.

i need somebody to tell me more about the humanities project.

i've got no clue about it.

after that talked to ms lim.

actually is she talk to me la.

about a lot of stuffs.

then ended up with tears.

booshit.

i thought i became tougher,

after i come back from OBS

because i didn't really cry

when i watch touching dramas like

"Easy Fortune Happy Life"

and i didn't cry when all of my OBS mates bid goodbye.

so i really thought i became tougher lor,

until she talked to me today.

it proved me wrong.

imma so disappointed.

wanted to get out of the school asap

in order for me to cool down.

the moment i wana get out of school,

mr sara appeared.

my only dear teacher who calls me EMILY.

he pulled me back.

sat down and talked to me.

can say he's really my "cheer-up pill"

ms lim made me feel like some failure.

but he made me feel like some good girl.

so imma like in a dilemma.

oh well, im just back from OBS,

how much do you expect from me.

im trying my best to meet up to the expectations.

i feel that im progressing mah.

perhaps, we just don't see things at the same perspective sometimes.

i know you want me, and its kind of your responsibility

for me to be a successor.

but i guess i can, and im gona go my own way.

well, i wish to have good results too.

it's really a "LOVE or HATE" thing.

lunched at mac

with gays, adeline, man ting and kalinda.

talked sang and guitar-ed.

i wish life could be like that.

grrr, i hate myself.

music: whatcha say - jason derulo

cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out

i just didn't know what to do.