dude, i will hold on.

i miss the time when i drew smileys on my finger,

irritating syafiq. haha.

uhm, i have not been updating,

not that im busy.

in fact im quite la.

but that my computer is kinda angry with me la.

casue it just hangs and hangs and hangs.

so yeah, cousin came yesterday to fix it.

so here i am now.

i felt that my life sorta really changed,

after being given the current position.

people always say,

you have to do what you want, rather than what others want you to do.

i did what i want today,

but then, it's sorta wrong..

so how to expect me to do what i really want,

when i did it, and is wrong, when me myself don't think it is.

lols, making it sound so complicated.

nevermind, just felt that whenever i do what others want me to do,

people say im not a leader, just a follower.

so yeah, it landed me in a dilemma in a way or another.

next thing, because of different opinions, and the current position,

i sorta can't hang out with some of my friends.

because, others may not think, what i think.

as in we don't share the same view,

so they may think, me being with my that lot of friends,

is kinda wrong? i duno.

it's ok, im gona become a guai kia.

and hope there will be no more complains.

tests, oh well, at least im not failing any for now.

and i can't believe mid year exams are really drawing near.

there's chinese oral tomorrow,

and i have not studied for it.

there's chinese spelling tomorrow,

and i can't believe i forgot to bring back my handbook.

i had a heavy headache in class today.

i duno what happen to my brain.

i can feel it contracting or moving.

like it's gona burst? or wana jump out of e skull.

i feel so unlucky recently.

dun come near me,

there may be bird shit that will drop down and land on your head.

or maybe fans will fly and drop down on you {ouch.}

thanks amirah for the kitkat,

"take a break have a kitkat"

well, sometimes too much break cause me to procrastinate,

but then there's too much work.

too tiring, that's why every after a single work,

i need to procrastinate and rest a lot,

before i proceed to the next one.

i shed.

i shared.

i listened.

im glad.

i feel better.

and i thank you so.

music: shut up and let me go - the tings tings.

thoughts: i feel like just letting go of everything. i don't want them in the first place.

but it's has become a fact that i can't change anymore. live it with bah.

oh love, hold this.